It’s pretty amazing what your mind can do…  ever since Lukas was diagnosed with Atypical Cushings, my mind has played with me.  I worry… I worry a lot about him.  I am not sure I have been doing the right thing for him…  am I doing enough?  Are his meds working?  How can I help or can I help return his muscle mass to his body?  What else can I do?  Too much… too much… too much!!  At what expense…  the loss of enjoyment and happiness – and a loss of the time we have together (which may be years!!).

I need – I must – enjoy his presence in my life each and every day!  I need to enjoy the funny things he does!  I need to enjoy how he plays with Kaiden and to some extent – Jake.  How he carries his guggy (his toy) around with him.  How he takes Kaiden outside so Kaiden doesn’t have an “accident” in the house.  How he barks at me right before we run!  How he looks at me – after we complete a run as if to say, “We did good mom – didn’t we?!”  How he will lay close to me… keeping an eye on me.

This is my Lukie…  and how blessed I am!  How I need to recognize this… always keeping these things in the forefront of my mind!

HOW VERY TRUE!!