
Lukas passed two months ago on November 14, 2020 at 7:30a. I’ll write about what happened later… as it is still very difficult thinking about it.
What I did want to do is write down a verse from a song I heard around the Christmas Season. It speaks to my heart… then and now. It is from the song called “Memories” and the particular verse is:
“There’s a time that I remember, when I did not know no pain. When I believed in forever, and everything would stay the same. Now my heart feels like December when somebody says your name. ‘Cause I can’t reach out to call you, but I know I will one day – yeah.“
…”Now my heart feels like December… when somebody says your name…” my dear dear Lukie… how I miss you! I’d like to share the letter I wrote to him that I posted on my Facebook page several days after he passed. Still ever so “real:”
“Sir Lukas of Center Village from his minion Tina.” Dear Lukie – I love you little boy and I so miss you even though you just left me three days ago. You know what I miss the most? It’s the simple things you gave me Lukie… to hear you bark just one more time as we stand at the start line and I say to you “Are you ready Little Boy? Speak to me Lukie” – and you would bark – each time – to signal it was time to run; I will miss you escaping from your crate – looking for food – and people calling for me to come and get you; I’ll miss you running on the hill with Baby Jake and Kaiden – know that they miss you too; I’ll miss watching you weave… and how you reacted when I said “Weave weaver weave!” I’ll miss you sleeping on my bed and when I start to move… snuggling up and pawing me; I’ll miss you laying in the closet watching and waiting for me to come out of the shower; I will even miss racing you in the yard for the “poop” Baby Jake just left… you so loved his droppings! I’ll miss that look you would give me after we finished our run… so very sweet! I’ll miss singing to you – “You are my Sunshine” – for you truly are my Sunshine. I’ll miss you keeping Kaiden in his place; I’ll miss you lining up with the other two boys to get your after meal treat. It’s the simple things I will miss Lukie. Know that my heart will be forever burden in the fact that I didn’t react fast enough to take care of you… for that Little Lukie I am so so sorry. I love you Little Boy… you were truly my Sunshine. I will never forget you and you will FOREVER be deep in my soul!”
After putting this in… I need to stop as I am in tears. Will I ever not miss you? Love you Little Lukie! Truly – forever in my soul!






You must be logged in to post a comment.